heated

This past Saturday I nearly got in an altercation on the mat.

I've never rolled angry before, but I got set off during a session.

This new white belt that's fond of heelhooks, kneebars, neck cranks, and other injurious moves had been rubbing me the wrong way ever since he came. He does crazy, out of control moves that could easily injure someone, and I had a feeling that he was going to piss me off one day.

Anyways, this past practice, he got me in a crucifix and drove his weight down on the back of my neck, forcing my chin to my chest. I tapped and went into incredible hulk mode. I passed his guard and JUMPED onto knee on stomach and then moved to mount and shouldered him in the face, driving my weight down on his head and ripping his head to the side. My intensity level went up 500%, and it was clear that I was no longer the relaxed and calm jiu jitsu player that I normally am. I grabbed my own sleeve and PUNCHED him in the throat for an ezekiel choke (with the knuckles, not the fist). He started gurgling and murmuring "NOOO" in between gags. A lot of people stopped what they were doing to see what the hell was going on.

He somehow upa'ed me into my guard and began headbutting me in the face. I responded by chinning him in the eyesocket and decided to just hold him there until time expired, as I felt that if I had done anything more it would have resulted in punches thrown.

Not sure how I feel about it, but I feel like I was somewhat justified in being upset because of the neck crank. Maybe I should've controlled myself more, but everything just drove me over the edge.